I’ve been working on this journal of sorts for a few months now. I’m not sure if ‘abstract‘ is the right word…I’m at a loss for a better word to describe it…although ‘true trust and openness‘ is probably a better description. I need to get a few last things together…mainly the few photos that need to be added and then I just need to figure out where to get an actual copy made…most likely online somewhere.

Either way this is just volume 1. Why would I give something the label of volume 1…? Well there will be a volume 2 eventually. I can’t say exactly when, just that I’m 108% sure there will be…I want to say how long before I’ll start writing the next one, but they kind of write themselves and the last few times I guessed at similar things I was a little to accurate.

If this entry makes no sense to you don’t worry…a lot of my entries in 2008 probably won’t. In fact I’ve been tossing the idea around of making this blog private again and only open to certain people so I can use it for its initial purpose.

Merry Christmas…Happy New Year…blah blah blah.

Over the past 6-8 weeks I’ve lost all motivation and creativity. In years past the same thing has happened, but it’s never been as bad as this year. I know what the problem is, it’s Seasonal Affective Disorder also known as winter depression. Basically what it means is my overall mood is heavily dependent on sunlight. Living in Michigan makes getting sun during the winter months a problem and the only thing I’ve found that helps is to go tanning.

So what have I been doing the past 6-8 weeks? Well not much… This is my typical week. Wake up and get ready for work, get into work about an hour late. Leave work, come home and make dinner, drink some beer, and go to sleep. Repeat. I’ve gained almost 10 pounds because of it. This is the first time in my life I’ve ever considered myself out of shape. At 26 I have a mini beer belly. It sounds funny, but when I look down I think WTF.

However the combination of two sunny days and an overall intriguing week has given me this huge boost of motivation. It couldn’t of come at a better time. It had got so bad that aside from doing one photography job for a close friend I hadn’t picked up my camera in over a month. My apartment has become extremely disheveled, even borderline gross. Today however I’ve already almost completely cleaned all the gross parts and am working on finished up the rest.

Instead of rambling on for another three paragraphs I’m going to go do the dishes and finish up a couple art projects that are getting dusty. So I’ll leave you with this amazing mix by Mike Ill: Discobelle.net – Mixin’ It Up – Mike Ill.

A special thanks goes out to that person that helped me find my motivation even though neither one of us are even sure how.